What patient means?

What really passion means?

I always ask that to myself.
For some unfair condition, shall i be tolerant.. 
For some uncontrolled condition, shall i just silent.
For some disgrace matter, shall i keep quite 
For some silly statements, shall i respond
For some messy life, shall i accept it all

For me life is not fair... But so far i can accept it. So far.. This far..
If i ask God, why life is so unfair, sure there will be no answer. Maybe He doesn't want to hurt me that's why He never answer me. Or perhaps He just keep quite so that i won't be angry if the answer can not satisfy me. I don't know. I wish He is my Kudo so that i can talk with Him directly and discuss why life seems unfair to me.

For some human being, my life is fair enough. I have some of every woman doesn't have.
I have faith, I have brain, I have strength to continue living my life.
But they don't know why i become so strong.  Pain can gain power which you even can not understand.

I don't want to involve spiritual knowledge in it. As if we can be ambiguous and we can not see the real feelings. 

Try to enjoy life...Perhaps it is the answer. Try to receive the hardest moment, will, is happening or just happened.

Take a very deep breath.. close your eyes.. and empty your mind. 

Cry if you want.. But try it without words..

Again take a deep breath... close your eyes.. 

Then open your eyes, and smile by yourself. You will feel better..

You are the reason why

Since i have a lot of time, i want share everything i want..

Some of you will think my blog is too naif and so bored.. The first blogs are like a teen love story or a puppy love. No .. no.. don't get me wrong. The universe will tell you exactly what happen to me, and why i put all my energy and power to have a fairy tale life.

I think i will share in many different stories..

It started to a naif and stupid woman like me. A woman who declared that she is smart but indeed so stupid.

I fall in love with a -seems like- gentleman 9 years ago. He is a handsome, clever, dicipline with 190 cms tall. The first time i can imagine He is a perfect guy to hang out and marry with.

The things was going like every couple who is falling in love. Everyday was heaven.
Since he is too perfect for me, i was afraid to loose this guy. For a 'not really pretty, not really rich' girl. He was everything for me. I said everything.

Then i put aside every strange communication, habit he had. Then i just said, He is the perfect one! I can follow eveyrthing he needed. Even He couldn't accept who i am, i can accept who he is.

A strange quarell...
A stupid jealousy
A really stuck two side communication
A bad temper...
A neglecting warning from best friends

No! He was just too perfect for me. There would not be a man like him again in this universe who will accept an ugly and naif woman like me.

I close my eyes, my ears to everything and just see one person in front of me. Who always argued to let me go, but always got a rejection from me.

It was a mistake woman.. A big mistake.. I will never know.. I will never realize it..
Until something bad happened to me..

Continued

Quotes of the day

Quotes of the day


^o^ Love without no reason, love needs no reason. If love does have a reason, then it is not 'love'... it is 'like'

^o^ The best relationships usually begins unexpectedly
^o^ Love waits for one thing.... the right
^o^ When you accept somebody, you accept their past too. Dont hold it against them later.
^o^ "You're  mine forever' is one of the most selfish phrases, but also one of the most loving thingd that someone can say.

the last but not least , my fav of the day :
if your ex says : "you will never find anyone like me", you say " Well isn't that the point?"


Love... Love..Love.. is in the air..

Quality compare to Quantity

Semarang, 4 November 2012

Do you think quality time is better than quantity. Yet for some point. But not for the entire life. Quantity is still workable for a relationship.
Just like me. Both of us proof it. 
I am even too busy to write down my lovely blog to share the world, fairy tale do exist.

We meet just to takl about money money, just because we want to have settle life. And for me, i dont want to live in poverty when i enter the gate of a marriage life. * yes it is my wrong mindset*
Then when i met Kudo the love of my life, it is like something missing inside my heart. I feel flat when i meet him. I feel like okay, i will be happy after i marry him, i will be happy after we have a sweet comfortable home, with a garden in it and our dogs around. 

Love and making love needs sacrifice and commitment to stay on fire forever.
And it takes two to tango. I can not work alone! But i always know that i can count on him. Just a little joke to start our romaticsm again. Then the ice will be break.

This is my story today. We end it up with bubur sukabumi and hot tea to warm our stomach. Yes, the raining season is coming. And cold weather is waiting. But our heart will keep on warm.

Keep on working our loves. God bless us.